Rainy Thursday....

Yep the weather is pretty ordinary up here at the moment. I just took Stu to the airport, as he is off to Tasmania to help out his boss race at Rally Burnie, and seriously the rain was soo hard, we had to pull over because I couldn't see where I was driving...very scary.

So yeh, back at work now.

My week has been okay. We didn't play squash last night as we wanted to relax at home with our puppies before Stu went away today. And we didn't get up for the gym this morning either...opphs! Oh well, that's life, not going to stress too much over it. I seem to stress myself out over things too much lately....if I get out of here at a reasonable time I will go to the gym this evening otherwise I will ride our wind trainer while I watch telly tonight and do some sit ups...better than nothing! Tomorrow morning I will back up and at em though ;)

Yesterday I went to the doctor as I had had enough of my stomach. The constant bloating and "gas" is driving me bonkers. Now I have had this on and off for the last 5 years and I have been to the doctors soo many times, and they never really help, they just give laxatives, which is not a solution. So I have been noticing that it has really been affecting my mood lately as I constantly "feel" fat and I just get really down and sad. Soo off I trundled to the doctors. I ended up with quite a good doctor actually and he went over some stuff with me and sent me off to have a blood test *ouch - such a whimp*. I go back in a week and a half to find out the results to see if I am lacking in anything or allergic etc....so will be interesting. Otherwise I think he will refer me to a nutritionist as it will then be classed as IBS and we'll have to find out what the trigger foods are. I was speaking to Stu about it and I really have no idea what the trigger is, whatever it is, it must be a few things as I eat pretty healthily and have cut out things but it still seems to be a problem. Anyways I am positive that we will work this out...I just can't wait to wake up one morning and have a flat (well relatively) flat tummy...oh the dream!

Oh the doctor did give me some tablets which I am to take one a day for three weeks - something to do with the acid in the stomach, he said there was no harm in trying them, they may work and if they don't well they don't. I took one yesterday and I did wake up this morning feeling a tad better - so maybe maybe it has something to do with acid...in 3 weeks we'll see....hehe

Okay well I shall go and check out everyone's blogs now and see what the goss is..haha!

Love,
Melly.
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Friday, Yippeee.....

I totally love weekends I have to say!!

Well this week has been really good - I had my low energy levels for a few days there but I kept soldiering through and I woke up on Thursday feeling really good. I have fitted in all my scheduled trains (bar one, but I went for a walk instead) and today I got up at 6am and did my 45 mins cardio at the gym then at 11am went across (to a different gym) and trained with my PT legs. So no doubt over the weekend I will be sore. Last week we went really hard with legs and I could not walk properly or actually do any cardio for 2 days - seriously that's the sorest I have ever been. This week we concentrated on up the cardio reps instead of going really heavy...it was still hard though!!

Anyways I am very proud of myself, which is good because I can't do a train tomorrow because I have to be social and catch up with some of my friends that I haven't seen for yonks. Then we are going out to Indian (again!) with Stu's Dad for dinner, I love the new restaurant they have up here...hmmm YUM!

But will be back at the gym for some cardio on Sunday so its all good at this stage :)

I was a little disappointed today though because I was sure with all my efforts this week I may have gone down slightly on the scales even a few hundreds of a kilo but alas was exactly the same. I think my body probably evened out after my really really bad weekend last weekend......I can't train with my trainer next week because Stu has to go to Tasmania for Rally Burnie so I am positive that next time I see my trainer I will be under the magical mark......

Okay I have rambled enough - I hope that everyone has a really great weekend and we all keep our minds focussed and on track for our goals!!!

Love,
Melly.
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Hump Day...

Well its Wednesday and since my last post a week ago things have been pretty good. By the end of last week I felt like I had made a bit of a break through as was feeling better but then of course things got in the way and Friday & Saturday & Sunday actually did not work out as I had hoped.

Anyways I started again on Monday but I have to say, and this is probably why I haven't posted fora week now, is that I am absolutely exhausted, tired. I have no idea why because I am certainly not pushing myself hard because I am tired all the time. I am thinking of going to the health food shop to see what they have for energy - I don't take any supplements or anything (except Vitamin C tablets) mainly because I can't swallow the BIG tablets they have...grrr

So will see what they recommend and see if that helps. Not sure when I will go across the shops yet, with no energy seems to come no motivation as I also seem to be really clumsy too...I have broken soo much stuff in the last week! Doh!

But nevertheless I am pushing on with my morning trains etc...am very sore from Mondays chest & arms, tonight is squash (which was sooo hard last week but I loved it!), tomorrow is back & shoulders and Friday is legs & cardio...so it will be full steam ahead, just have to get over this little hurdle...

A massive congrats to all who competed in Melbourne over the weekend - I think you are all totally amazing!!!

Love,
Mel.
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Keeping it going...

Well soo far soo good *touch wood* haha...

I have really been enjoying training in the morning. I have been going to bed a bit earlier each night so that I get a really good sleep, as I am such a sleep person. Normally you cannot budge me in the mornings so I am really proud that i have been bounding out of bed each morning this week...I know its only Wednesday but still!!

Its just such a great feeling getting your train in first up and then knowing you have the rest of the day for anything else that you need to do. Its also great eating breakkie at home and coming home that night to no dishes as I get to tidy up before I leave in the morning now...so I just stay at work a bit longer then head home to have a nice relaxing shower and cook etc....rather than rushing around and trying to fit in my trains and then cook etc....

Stu has been loving it too!

Tonight is squash night. Unfortunately today I am absolutely exhausted, not sure why, might still be recovering from my cold a bit...I really don't want to go but Stu is pushes us to and the booking is pre-made so we gotta go. One of the guys has gone home sick from work this arvo so its put everyone under pressure here and I dare say we will just make it to our 6.30pm time slot tonight - I was hoping to cook dinner before we go but doesn't look like I will get to - I don't dare go and say I am leaving now for fear of getting my head bitten off..hehe

Anyways so just wanted to thank everyone for all your great words - I am definately listening and am just plugging away - I am marshmallow free, watching my portion sizes, eating much healthier at lunch times and finally gyming it regularly now - so I reckon I will notice some tone and definition in no time.....oh actually Stu mentioned on Monday that he reckons my butt has got tighter, thank you trainer, I knew I loved my PT sessions for a good reason....every girl loves being told the effort is paying off - no doubt I will be pumped for my PT session tomorrow - bring it on.

I hope everyone is doing well, shall go take a squizz what you are all up to shortly!

Mel.
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Weekend Review...

Well I have to say I am rather proud of myself nutrition wise over the weekend. I was very anti-social and just spent all my time at home with my puppies (not that they are puppies but thats what we call them)...so that made it a bit easier. My cold is still hanging around so the only thing I did exercise wise was a 30 min walk on Sunday and some sit ups & push ups. Saturday I was flat out running about at work so I was exhausted when I got home that afternoon!

Anyways I made a really big effort to watch my portions and boy was it hard, espeically Friday night but I did the ole frozen meal thing for dinner on Friday and Sunday nights which helped me heaps because I couldn't go back for seconds and on Saturday I had some food leftover which I had frozen and I used half of it and then chucked the rest out so I wouldn't be able to go back for more which I knew I would do.

So Stuart is back now - he actually has my cold so we are starting our exercise routine tomorrow morning, well I definately will be not sure if he will be able to or not as its in his chest at the moment. He didn't have the best time over the weekend racing. The new car he had needed to have its engine replaced so he didn't get to practise or even qualify and had never been in the car before, so he did ok for his first time in the car and not practise but he wasn't very happy.

Anyways so today is the start of our healthy nutrition and tomorrow is the beginning of our new fitness regime - I am pumped, we are both gonna look super hot soon..yah!

So here is our scheduled work outs for the rest of the week....

Tuesday: 55 mins cardio (morning)
Wednesday: Arms & back (morning), 1 hour squash (evening)
Thursday: 55 mins cardio (morning) - legs (dependant on trainer, otherwise Saturday)
Friday: Chest & Shoulders (morning)
Saturday: 55 mins cardio - possibly legs too??
Sunday: 1 hour walk with puppies

And I actually walked to work this morning - 3km...so that was nice, it was a little cold but at least I did something!

How exciting for everyone re: the comp this weekend - can't wait to see how everyone goes, I know you will all kick butt...can't wait to see pics!

Big smiles to everyone, hope all is going well.
Mel.
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Evil Marshmallows...

OMG....I just looked up my calorie counter diary electronic thingy and 1 x 25g serve marshmallow has like 84 cals!!!! In recent months I have been a marshmellow junkie...so I gather that like 10 marshmallows would have been 840 cals...no wonder I have ballooned out a bit - from a simple marshmallow.

Well that is it, I am now marshmallow free...eekkkk!

And another.....

Photos....

To make me smile a bit, thought I would a couple of pics...these are from the Great Wall of China, which was amazing....I hope the photos do it justice!

Confessions...

I am really down and upset today. Just got off the phone from my Mum who just made me even more upset - I hate people that just go "okay dear"...aghhhhh

I have put on 5kg this year, I look horrible and I feel horrible. I looked in my wardrobe this morning and thought I have no clothes but then I looked and I actually have heaps of funky clothes just absolutely none of them fit me but I my gym track pants and my gym stretch 3/4 pants which I have to wear to work because of this reason. So each day I feel like a sloth because I can't fit into my own clothes.

I am just soo disappointed with myself.

In high school I was over weight and then after shcool I really pushed myself to be what I wanted, it was easy, living at home, no boyfriend etc...now I am back to what I was like in high school all over again.

Yesterday I watched some video footage from our honeymoon earlier this year and I could hardly believe that person looking back at me. I looked great - I could see my cheekbones and I was even wearing a bikini and looked good.

So I asked myself "what has changed to make me put on the weight?" Well I guess... being honest a number of things:-

* I stopped going to the gym for a couple of months
* I have been picking at chocolate or icecream - sometimes having a binge
* I overate at dinner time, be it healthy food but still...

I think they are the main things....

When I was sick the other day I sat down and wrote out a 6-week exercise & nutrition program for myself and Stu. He used to be extremely fit, doing triathlons etc but with work being soo hectic this year he just hasn't done anything and has been eating quite a bit of junk too....so I showed him the plan which he loved and we discussed that we need to change our actual lifestyle not just our exercise & food.

So changes that will commence (for me this Sunday for Stu Tuesday as he is away):-

* We will get up each morning at 6am to exercise - this is just wasted time for us at the moment, not utilising it & therefore at night we can spend time with our dogs and doing other stuff
* We will play squash once a week as a form of cardio & for something fun - a set day each week
* We will also have a night without tv at all - at the moment I find tv is ruling my life, I have to be home by a particular time to watch certain programs...very sad
* No more stir frys or foods where I cannot control my portion sizes
* Breakfast will be eaten at home rather than work - we normally eat at work but we always get interrupted by customers and it has to be something basic so it can be eaten on the run, like toast with jam etc....but from now on whilst Stu is having a shower after training I will whip up an awesome protein packed breakkie for us both and will also make our lunches for the day and instead of starting work at 8am will start at 9am to take these extra chores into account


And there are a few others but that is the basic main changes we will be making.

I now this is a whinge and its all my own fault. You hear people say "how can someone get soo big without knowing?". Well they know, but they choose to ignore it for as long as they can. I have been blindly going along each day and hoping to change but not actually changing.

I am a person that is scared of everything - i am certainly not a daredevil - I am always wondering what is going to go wrong, each time Stu hops on a plane (which is often) I pray nothing happens to him etc... I am scared to push myself. When I get stressed I have before got quite bad chest pains which I did go to the doctor about but I can't remember the name of it but anyways I get scared because I don't want to get those pains during cardio again because it really scared me...now this was 2 years ago and I am still scared to push myself - I mean seriously, I need to take action.

I am confident that with both myself and Stuart embarking on this "lifestyle" change we will conquer it today I am just upset and down.

Mainly because I also get confused. Yesterday I had a quite good eating day, I didn't get to eat much except breakfast and lunch at work (which were small healthy foods) as we were so busy, then when I got home I made up a big stirfry, chicken mince, chickpeas, capsicum, onion, mushrooms, brown rice and a sweet chilli sauce - I had a good amount, not small but not massive massive and then I confess I did have 6 marshmellows BUT my stomach is the biggest its ever been, hard as a rock and I look about 5 months pregnant - I glimsped myself in the mirror going to bed and couldnt' stop crying....

Anyways I am not feeling sorry for myself at all, I am angry at myself for not being able to take control, for working soo hard a few years ago and now wasting it and feeling like this again....I feel lost and spinning out of control........

Down and out...

Yep I have a cold or something - am not feeling too good at all...so am quite annoyed because I missed my cardio sess on Monday, I did push myself to go and see my trainer and do legs yesterday and I thought I was getting better but today I am feeling just worse and its progressed. I was all set to start back at the gym today but am thinking it may be a no go!!! Grrr...

Plus Stu is off to Eastern Creek, NSW tomorrow for racing until Sunday so that means I have work here from 7.30am to about 6.30pm on thurs & fri and then Sat til about 2pm so I gotta get better quick.

I feel soo yuk not have been to the gym - I thought I was making some progress but now have gone backwards.

Anyways this is just a quick one as am waiting for a staff member to come back from a morning appointment and then think I might retreat to bed and Dr Phil.....oh weighed in with trainer again on Monday, am exactly the same - but cannot expect miracles when am taking only baby steps.

Right so off I go - big smiles to everyone, have a great week and hopefully I will be back up and rearing to go this weekend (am planning on not meeting up with any friends or anything, I just feel like having some "Mel" time, clean the house, go to the gym, walk my boys and watch some girly dvds...very anti social I know)....

xxx